I know that there are lots of people who love me and want to help but I do feel somewhat alone. My dad was here and he helped but mostly just to keep me distracted. At least when Caitlin died I had Jenny, she understood how I felt and we went through all that pain. I feel so alone with the loss of Kristen, we've been friends since I was 2 months old. My parents were in the hospital when she was born. We used to have conversations without speaking, just using facial expressions becuase we knew what the other person would be thinking.
She was just 18, she was too young. And she was so happy. She was loving college, I got such funny and upbeat e-mail's from her. I wish I had saved all of them because there will never be another.
All of my love to her family. I can not even imagine their pain. I hope I will be able to come home, I don't know though.